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Thursday, 2 December 2010

Sometimes

Sometimes I look up into the night sky,
And then I think and wonder why,
Why does life sometimes hurt so bad?
Even when we love, it can be also sad.

Sometimes I sink down on to my knees,
Pray to God, "Can you help me please"?
I wonder if he ever listens to me up there.
I wonder if there is anyone who will really care.

Sometimes everything just falls apart, it goes wrong.
I become so very weak, when I should be strong.
Cruel words seem to always be hurled at my head.
How can you try to forgive, the poison that is said?

Sometimes I feel there is no point in carrying on,
And the days seem to stretch forever long.
So here I am, once again, looking up at the night sky.
Trying so very hard, not to bring down and cry.

Sometimes I thank God I can always turn to you.
You make it so worthwhile, every thing that I do.
So when times are too hard, you stay for awhile.
And sometimes I know, you heal me when you smile.

Shooting Star

Shooting star;

                             I made a wish on you, the other day;
                             Hoping I would not have to suffer anymore,
                             Unfortunately this nightmare pain, still remains.
                             Just like it did yesterday, and the day before that.

Shooting star;

                            I think you just keep on passing me by,
                            Ignoring every wish I carry on making.
                            Tell me, what is the point believing in you,
                            When you never listen to us humans down here.

Shooting star;

                             I don't even care about wishing anymore;
                             Who would want to waste a wish on a star.
                             I am just going to suffer here, in silence;
                             Racked in spasms of agony, from a wish untrue.

Shit Happens

You're told to get over it
Leave it all in the past
Let your life be in transit
These feelings will never last

They say things just like
There's always worse than you
Don't be miserable, take a hike
Why don't you think it through

Yeah, but the shit happens to me
This is something they don't have to face
Because this shit happens to be
Leaving me feeling a bit out of place

You look in the mirror and see stars
You never get to feel the strain
All I ever see are fucking scars
And I still feel the fucking pain

You live in your world, so perfect
And you are in that world, still
I go through life feeling like a reject
And I am guessing I always will

Because shit happens to me
So why should you bloody care
Because shit happens to be
When you wasn't the one who was there

Yes I'm feeling this anger inside
And sometimes it seems to fade
Do you feel these tears I have cried?
Always feeling like a freak those bastard's made

So I guess I just have to carry on
And do what they always seem to say
Keep your chin up and be strong
So why don't the nightmares go away?

I suppose, shit happens to me
And it never happens to you
When shit happens to be
Always fucking coming true

She Loves You

I saw her crying in the window
It is none of my business to ask why
I guess it is the reason you are here
Drinking your sorrows at this bar, my friend

I've known you both for so many years now
Neither of you have ever had a cross word
You are the heart and soul of what is love
Drinking to hope it goes away never works

I'm guessing all that pressure at work you have
It is getting you and it is dragging you down
But as a man, you believe you have to carry that burden
To never share it with her to cause her to worry

Dry those tears that are starting to fall, my friend
You know she will forgive you, go and talk to her
You married through good and bad, share it now
She is the one keeping you strong, be strong for her

Remember that she loves you, she always will
You love her for she is your World, my friend
Remember that she loves you, her heart is yours
Go home to her, hold and kiss away the tears she cries

Shattered Dreams

Nothing is as it seems

Living out shattered dreams

With false promises we make

And the ones we always break

Knowing what we must

Never knowing who to trust

Always letting somebody down

With our sorrows we drown

Never knowing what to do

Trying to always be true

And having no way of knowing

And these thoughts still growing

My heart is always broken

Taking my love like a token

My thoughts are my own

In the life I have sown

Wednesday, 1 December 2010

Sharp Emotions

She has much to offer life,

But she still uses the knife.

Puts it next to her wrist,

Cuts deep with a twist.

Closes her eyes as it hurts now.

Wish she saw hope somehow.

She really wanted him to stay,

Now her life slowly ebbs away.

If I could hold her, I would.

Comfort her if I could.

Show her there are others who care,

Show her there is someone there.

Sharp emotions she will feel.

This pain is all too real.

Taking her life with too much ease.

Will there be someone to love her, please.

See With Blind Eyes

See the dark corner of the room

Pregnant woman beaten black and blue

Wanting to protect the child in her womb

There is no one to see what she goes through

See the ten year old girl crying all alone

Scared to tell what she secretly has to endure

Afraid to call for help on the phone

Such a fragile mind left to always injure

See the teenager cutting her own wrist

Used for satisfaction and then cast her away

She faces dark times that she can not resist

In this life she does not want to stay

See something because our eyes see blind

Block out the truth that hides out there

See the things we really never want to find

See with your eyes for you can only stare

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

Pushed Too far

Somewhere in the shadows of my mind

You never know what you will find

Never know what is hidden there

That is never going anywhere

Staying there in every passing season

Never seeming to have any reason

Maybe it is the madness in my head

With problems I can not shed

Those thoughts are watching and waiting

Always they are festering and hating

And they always carry the scar

Where they can be pushed too far

Private Hell

Will you end this suffering I feel?

This damnation of a life I steal

Left to face a fate that I will seal

Before the Devil I make the deal

This is now my own private hell

With this pain, I fit in so well

I can not show the words I have to tell

A long way down from grace I fell

The ugliness in my soul rings true

Being left out with nothing I can do

Dragged into despair, all the way through

Blackened clouds cover my sky once blue

My fault for believing in a prince that always lies

No one feels my pity or hears my cries

I have just too many lows and not enough highs

No escape from all the time my soul always dies

In the light I knew I could never be able to stay

All I could ever do was watch it all fade away

On my grave the demons will now come to play

I never will face another hope filled day

Sunday, 28 November 2010

Ode To A Burns Victim

Does anyone know what it's like to burn
To have your flesh blister like a white hot sun
To feel your nerve endings popping
Skin ablaze with the fire not stopping

Your left leg on fire, wish you were dreaming
Your foot a ball of flame and you keep on screaming
But exactly what was your crime
Only being at the wrong place at the wrong time

So years on this is how the story goes
You got severe scarring and lost two toes
This story is true, it's for me to tell
It's left me slightly unhinged, I've been through hell

So life's a mess, getting women? I'm out of luck
If you don't like looking at me, I don't give a fuck
It's okay for you, you can just walk away
For me, I have to live with it every day

Nobody

I am feeling so very lonely

I want to find someone near

And I know that if only

There could just be someone here

Finding I am living my life solo

Give my life for somebody to share

I keep on looking but, oh no

I still find nobody is there

Being always solitary and alone

A place in my heart is empty

Always finding I am on my own

There is nobody waiting for me

Not one person to hold my hand

Nobody there to show me the way

No one is next to me to stand

Wish someone would tell it is okay

Alone where ever I may walk

With nobody ever at my side

No person to listen to me talk

Never to see those tears I have cried

copyright Chris Smith 2004

No More Tears

Silently you seem to lie there
Never sharing in your fears
Seeming to think I no longer care
Wishing there were no more tears

I can not help just being a man
Having the passions that I feel
These desires are what make me human
These desires are what makes me real

You try to hide as you cry
That I only need you for my lust
And no matter how much I try
I never seem to gain your trust

So please do not lie silently there
Share with me your fears
Let me show you that I care
Together there will be no more tears

Night Rain

Night rain drips from the window
No light in a room of shadow
He left her there, facing her tears
He left her there, living her fears

So she hated thinking of life alone
Used a knife, cutting to the bone
Sits down with no will to resist
Blood like a river from her wrist

The tears have dried, no longer weepy
She closes her eyes, she is feeling sleepy
All the good times come into her head
Now she no longer dreams for she is dead

Night passes into the day time hours
A man comes to the house with flowers
Last night he is sorry if he offended
Unprepared for how those actions ended

Saturday, 27 November 2010

Never One Tear

The child was only sixteen months old
She had been here for two weeks
Another hospital patient of the Burns Unit
From a home that treated her only neglect
But this little girl never cried a tear

Cigarettes had been used on her little body
For when she cried, they would stub them out
Leaving horrible welts, all over, terrible burns
Both parents used the excuse of being drug addicts
Now this little girl never cried a tear

The nurses have given her a teddy bear
It would always be there in her crib
And the little girl never spoke one word
But they knew that she loved this cuddly toy
Still this little girl never cried a tear

One night a nurse on duty came to visit
The nurse had seen the teddy bear on the floor
This little girl had been too scared to make one sound
And the nurse saw the tears running down her little face
With that little girl, the nurse also cried those tears

I wonder what did happen to that little girl
Did she still grow up to have a good life
A poor small child, another innocent of abuse
But still there are millions like her, out there
Little children that never cry a tear

Based on a true story/ copyright Chris Smith 2010

Never Forget

A little girl, they came and took her

In the morning they found her gone

The shock for her mother shook her

She was crying it was wrong

They called the boys in blue

The police tried their best

They could not find a clue

Their skills were put to the test

Three months and the little girl is not found

But there are too many rumours people say

Some say she is buried in the ground

Some say she has been seen far away

But there is a chance she is alive

No one is going to give up yet

Hope that little girl will survive

Remember her for we must never forget

For Maddie and every missing child

Misery

Why does this life

Cut me like a knife

Cutting into me

Causing pain and misery

Thoughts in my head

Make me wish I was dead

It so very very deep

My tears I weep

What should I do

Shall I turn to you

Friday, 26 November 2010

Lying Games

She promised him the world
Promised him she was his to keep
He never saw her false smile
The hurt would run too deep

She would disappear throught the night
Leaving him feeling all alone
Wondering where could she be
Hearing another mans' voice on the phone

She told him, he could never be enough
Her black book contained too many names
She told him she needed to have real men
He was a victim as she played her lying games

The police came for him that fatal night
He had killed himself with his knife
But he was not alone in the spilled blood
He made sure he had taken her life

copyright Chris Smith 2010

Thursday, 25 November 2010

Love Is Strange

Love opens up the door
Then it slams it closed
It takes a hold of you
And throws you away

Love lightens your life
But leaves you in the dark
It takes you by the hand
Only just to let you go

Love is strange
We never understand it
Love is strange
We are confused by it

Love welcomes you inside
And then it forces you out
It touches you so gentle
Just to slap you in the face

Love gives you the answers
It keeps asking more questions
Comes to you to be near
But it keeps being far away

Love is strange
An odd little thing
Love is strange
It tells you nothing

Look

Look at the old man
Staring back at you
With the world in his eyes
From his hospital bed
Knowing he is going to die

Look at the young mother
With her beauty to see
Soon to lose a part of her
Maybe to save her life
At the cost of her breast

Look at the baby in the cot
With all those years ahead
Cruelly now taken away
A young life, like a candle
Blown out in the wind

Look at the soldier, the hero
Who fought to protect us all
Fighting to stay alive, for his country
Only to come back safe and sound
To finally lose a war he couldn't win

copyright Chris Smith 2010

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Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Jealous Minds

A man calls her on the phone
Nothing to worry about
Just an old friend of the past

But the mind plays tricks
When you are far away
Thoughts come too fast

Jealous minds blind you
You never see the truth
You see what you think instead

Jealous minds can trick you
They can eat you up inside
They play games in your head

Love is built on compromise
The foundation of trust
It is what you need to believe

Angry thoughts can always destroy
When the demons come out to play
Do not suffocate her or she will leave

But we never see in our hearts
That they are the one for us
We always think it will go wrong

No one will ever take them away
For they love you as much as life
Because that love always grows strong

WelshPoet